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[Oct. 30th, 2004|07:53 pm] |
Title: Demon-boy
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Just realized that it's not specified, so oyu can let your imagination wander, but i was thinking Phelpedo. :]
Summary: It's Halloween and there's music
Disclaimer: Don't own them, or Halloween.
*Is in need of Halloween fics so badly that she has decided to write them herself!*
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[Oct. 24th, 2004|11:23 pm] |
ugh. i think i just realized why i'm so ugly/think i'm ugly. you know how there's always the 'inner beauty' thing? i know that for a long time now, i've always been really ugly and jealous and just horrible to everybody. Mebbe it just makes me think that i'm ugly and as a result, get ACTUALLY ugly. this is so disgusting. i hat emyself. i've become exactly what i hate and it's horrible. since i was young, i never wanted to be a sterotypical princess, really stupid but really pretty. i always only wanted to be myself. this year, i realized that i HATE myself, so how is that possible? i'm always going to be UGLY inside/outside, on top whatver, i'm ugly, and i can't change it anymore than i can change BEING myself. damn me. i HATE MYSELF
fuck fuck fuck. my brother's home, and i like/hate it. it's like, i KNOW what he's thinking about me. i'm just paranoid and a miserable fuck is all, but it's like EVERYTHING he does is mocking me. i know he doens't, because why would he waste the time and he doesn't even care/know thati exist, so he's unaware of all this. small things, i keep thinking the worst of . he's like 'yeah, my girlfriend's 90 lbs' while his real meaning is 'my sister is a fatass. it's fucking disgusting, get lyposuction'. and this other time 'i hate it what you takl to people, andyou know that they're not interested' of COURSE that's me. i'm not even being dramatic right now, i KNOW it's true, i'm such an antisocial person thatHE knows it, and I know it. god. why do i suck. why does he have to be the one to point it out? he fucked up his high school and doens't even DO anything. gets drunk, has fun. i'm miserable and i study a lot and i try in school. i'll probably go to a better college, but be SO FUCKING MISERABLE that i'd want to die. my borhter will end up beoing happy. because that's how life is. he'll just always be better than me, in one owa of another. i wish i could forget about him, he serioulsy ruins my life, even when he doesn't even live here anymore and we don't even tlak. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2004|02:37 am] |
i hate:
being bitter
being jealous
being stupid
being materilistic
a.k.a. being me |
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[Oct. 20th, 2004|04:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | jesus of suburbia | ] |
i keep wishing that i am somebody who's NOT me. anybody, i just hate myself. i think it's just because i want to make myself known, i keep acting like a total retard, i never shutup, i think that i'm funny or amusing or something, but it's all so stupid. i'm so stupid. sad thing is, i'm the opnly one with this problem, no one else does. jamie, gelsey, sumita, kate, joan, maddy, krista. i need to fucking shutup! shutupshutup and stop being such a bitch and retard to my friends. i swear, i don't even know why thye hang around me..or is it me who doens't stop bothering them? i should try acoiding them for a week or something, only i know they wouldn't care and i'd be the desperate one. i keep saying that i can be alone, and that i like it that way, but i know that i won't likve one second being alone. damn myself. i wish i was perfect, damn damn damn damn dman damn damn dman mdna me. damn dman dman madn damnadmndmnamn msnmadnm ndmansdmme. i hate myselfffff. all mo fmy firends are better and i suck. thye're in chamber and i suck. they hav a little group separate, and i suck. i wish i wish i wish i iwsh i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish. i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck. i need to get a fucking life. so i guess my brother was right. i'm always going to be a loser, i'm always going to be a loner, i'm alwys going to need a life, i'm always going to be fat. i cant' change that and it pisses me off.
you will always SUCK
you will always be a LONER
you will never have FRIENDS
you will always be a LOSER
you will always be FAT.
yeah...i know. |
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[Oct. 14th, 2004|08:04 pm] |
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i hate it when you don't know whther people hate you or not. i guess, if you're so disgusted with something/someone, don't hang around then, let them know right away, cuase if you don't, its just sucky for the hated person(s) . gah jamie. well, how i was i suppoed to know that i was being stupid, immature and just plain pervy. i guess i just assumed that that's how the fic was going to end, but hey, i'm a retarded fucking retard.
my clothes are seruously getting too small for me. i think i'm going to cry.
YOU FUCKING FAT-ASS, FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT. GET SOME FUCKING EXERCISE YOU FUCKING FAT COW. STOP FUCKING EATING YOU FUCKIN FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT PIECE OF FAT. |
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[Oct. 12th, 2004|12:46 am] |
i'm getting so fat it's not even funny. it's actually noticable now, and i'm going to DIE! well, hopefully not that, more than BURY MYSELF and sleep for a thousand years. If i don't burn out junior year, i'll ....i dunno, do stuff. it's late, and i need sleep. but i need to rant first. it's so stupid how people are saying stuff like 'yes 89.99% students are suffering from backpains..." and blah blah blah...well, if the text books weren't so damn big. and also it's like 'adolsecents should get at leeast 1/2 hour exercise per day' and we're all like ' are you kidding? where the FUCK do we have the time??" damn them.
gUHHHhhh also i dunno what to do about david thing. i don't even really know why i'm mad him. he's just kinda stupidsoemtimes, but it's not big. i dunno, i'm probably a bitch. i had this dream yesterday where he talked to me, and i was relaly happy. my fault for being a little harsh, his fault for being mr. retardio. yeah, joking around with girl friends about who's ass is hotter, who they'd rather see have sex, NOT soemthing you WANT to tell them, dumass. jeez. blah. imiss him though. :[. i'm such a loser, i need....i dunno....a fast metabolism, therefore i can mope, but still be un-fat. there. problems solved. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2004|10:54 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | the killers -- all these things that i've done | ] |
by far one of the lamest entries i've ever done, but GOD i wish i had a love life, *rant rant rant*. i think it's so stupid that one of my friends thinks that her's is nonexistant, when she KNOWS that they might have something. She likes to pretend to be the drama queen, i duno why, to make her feel like an individual? to feel like she has the right to mope? i know i do too, and that i'm a complete hypicrit, but that makes it worse, cause i know that if i had remotely an inch or attention from someone from the opposite (or same) sex, i'd be doing the same thing. DAMMIT and DAMn me. alos, i'm getting fat again, since i keep FUCKING EATING FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKINGTASTIC! AHHH. i don't have ANy time to work out, i'm becoming a whale again adn i hate myself. again. wheee. but i cna't tell people, cuz they're just going to get pissed and annoing, an di know that thats why i have THIS user name. W00T my ranting user name. also, i'm not bothering with spelling, since it's crap anyways. DAMNIT. h'ok what else is there? as yes, my ugly face. it's so fat and pudgy and ugly and shit. i hate it. i hate how everyone looks good but me and how i'm so fucking ugly and fat and fat and fat and fat dna fat dan fatdndtddtsdntndsntasdntsdtklj.
i hate myself for hating others for stupid materialstic things, and i hate our stupif materialistic world and people are who are materialistic and mYSELF as well. now i need to do hw cuz my dad's SCREAING LIKE A GIRL AGAIN. AHHHH. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|07:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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So i just come home, and my cat starts like...coughing and hacking. i figure that it's only a hairball, so i ignore it. BAD IDEA. stupid but adorable Robbie barffed all over the fucking carpet. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|09:57 pm] |
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| | night like this--cure | ] |
...yeah, so i'm new on LJ and all. I actually only joined becasue of the communities. wheeeeeee |
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